Hmm...

Finally... I've got my internet connection at home!! wat a good news huh!!

LOL!!

Having a lovely easter break now...althought it's going to end soon...haha...finished up my 1st assignment already... cool huh!! erm.. Think of it.. there are still 2 more to go.. but don worry...will be finishing up soon.. very very soon..haha... now..let me tell u bout my holiday.. =P

 

1.BBQ

yep...there was a bbq on wednesday during the holiday. It was great although the weather there was freaking cold. Can u imagine we were having bbq on the 10th floor??!!! If i am not mistaken, the temperature there was nearly 8 degree. The food was nice, all made by Kylie i guess. She was boasting that she is very good in bargaining. Hmm... Are u sure? =P I had also contributed something to the bbq!! An absolute vodka!! But i didnt get to drink cause... Just don feel like!! haha.. Jeremy was seriously drunk, although we all know that he was just acting and trying to take advantage (hope he wont see this =P), but his dancing skill is really nice~ Hmm... Have been talking bout the history of love. Cant tell more about it here, but anyway, good luck kush!!

 

2.Chu Jie's Bday

Happy 18th bday chu jie!! That was thursday. Hmm.... Here is a question for u all, is buying cake a great responsibility? When u try to buy it without a car and frens helping u beside, u will find it is very very big reponsibility; to prevent it getting melt and stuffs. But there is a stupid rule for cakes in aussie, which u must put the cake in room temperature for 2-3hours before it can be served. stupid right? haha... The dinner was really great, pei xian(tian, suan, ku, la) is really a nice girl to talk with, she is so "guy", just like sf!! hahah!!! After party? yeah.. there is one.. In lygon park, with freddo's ice cream~ All of us were crapping all the way in the park, but there was a weird scene in the corner, someone actually STUDYING during mid-night in a park!! I cant name him out here, but he was really surprising, cause i had never seen one studying using moonlight since i have read it from the chinese text book last time. Overall..the night was great, to see everyone happy with my jokes =)

 

3. Work during holiday

First of all.. i need to study my physiol first..damn hard...6 weeks stuff to study in just 5 days.... >< can i do it?? sigh..i really have no confident at all..

think of it...it has been a while....1 week and 3 days in melbourne...

you ask me what i found out bout uni life?

answer:

1. cyber life

2. frenless life

3. funless life

4. timeless life

5. meaningless life

 

cyber life.

stupid online and phone connection. Its very troublesome to get an internet connection here.. I thought it's already very troublesome in Malaysia, but come to think of that, even Malaysia is more convenient. One week, i online in cyber cafe for one week already, not only for online chatting, but my notes taking, and also my uni thingy, all in cyber. Can you believe it, the worker there starts to give me discount as if i m a long-time user in their cyber. sigh... i need internet at home!!!!!

 

frenless life.

some might think, its not a problem for lo yi to make frens, he is so talkative and stuff. Larissa even said my self-esteem is never low!! But, i m really bad in this, especially when dealing with others in english. I hate this kind of feeling, locals, their english is like.. PerfecT? yeah..its perfect in some way. The way they talk, the words they use, the experience they share, its a nightmare for me!! It is not that bad after all, i met a local during class, comp lab they called. He was impressed, by my, er hem, english? Thats what he said, he was impressed a Malaysian can speak such a good english. This really cheer up my day, Thanks ashley!

 

funless life.

everyone's expecting uni life to be fun, activities, and stuff. But, if you are living, as in studying in such a small and compoundless campus, you will find your life bored and dull. where do i go for lecture? i can only tell you, lecture hall number 3, accompanying me for whole year. Frens from other campuses? oh, we go for lecture in lecture hall 3,4,5,etc.. so can u see the difference already? I try to make my life easier by getting some other "materials". Chyuan would know what is that. right? anyway, try to get used to the environment, trying very hard, no worries guys!

 

timeless life.

okay, tats the most crucial thing for me. TIMe!! assignments dealing in april, damn, and i m getting my internet during.. mid march? one month time? sigh.. i m timeless, i need time, to finish my revisions, to finish my assignment, to get used to the environment, to make frens.

what m i doing here? blogging? ya...i think its kinda time wasting, but.. just feel like typing, maybe it can make me feel better?? yeah..it does.. :)

 

meaningless life.

what m i doin here in melbourne? studying some might say. yeah... for a pharmacy degree. In my mind now, its meaningless for this moment, but come to think of my future, keke, i can imagine, and i can see the lights shooting out from the sky =) y is it meaningless? you all might wonder. Let me tel you wat i m studying right now, basics, yes... its still basics.. Dorinda told me, you might be suffering in these boring stuffs, but at least your way is fixed, and you can see your future already. Yes, its true, thx. I m just frustrated on those stuffs, but it doesnt mean that i don accept it. I accept it, and fighting for it!! don worry, i will study hard. ;) of course, mummy daddy, i wont dissapoint you all, as i said, I WILL WALK STEPS FURTHER THAN OTHERS!

 

*dinner tonite= Pearl milk tea :D

 

作为清朝扬州“八怪”之首，郑板桥在书画界是颇有名气的。他为人刚直不阿，见义勇为，自己宁愿受贫困折磨，也决不肯向权贵折腰；他的行为可以说是达到了孟子说的做人标准：富贵不能淫，威武不能屈，贫贱不能移。封建社会这样的读书人，真是难能可贵，今天，在发扬民族正气的中华泱泱大国，他也必然为全民族所共识。
　　因为品格高尚，为世钦仰，因而人们也很青睐他那别具一格的字和画。郑板桥一生绘了很多画，也写了不少字，他的那些绘画和书法，在他生前已是洛阳纸贵，有很高的欣赏价值。
　　近年，还出现一种现象，郑板桥所写的“难得糊涂”四个字，竟像传单那样被制成各种礼品式的拓片或作为像章推销，由此也引起人们对这位玩世不恭的郑板桥先生更增添一层兴味；对“难得糊涂”也就出自自己心理需求作出了解释，由此又顺延到对郑板桥书写这四个字的思维定势和价值取向，可是鉴于作者当时没有明确表明自己意向，因而产生了诸多相异的认识。
　　“难得糊涂”是什么意思？
　　自我嘲解说。这是在公元1751年（乾隆十六年），郑板桥59岁时写的。这年九月十九日，郑板桥在潍县“衙斋无事，四壁空空，周围寂寂，仿佛方外，心中不觉怅然。他想，一生碌碌，半世萧萧，人生难道就是如此吗？争名夺利，做胜好强，到头来又如何呢？看来人还是糊涂一些好，万事都作糊涂观，无所谓失，无所谓得，心灵大约也就宁静了。于是他挥毫写了四个大字‘难得糊涂’，因此它被称为‘真乃绝顶聪明人吐露的无可奈何语，是面对喧嚣人生、炎凉世态内心迸出的愤激词’”（杨士林《广陵奇才——郑板桥传》，安徽文艺出版社）。
　　抗议之声说。说是在公元1754年（乾隆十九年）秋，郑板桥由山东范县调任潍县知县，上任之日，正好遇百年未有的旱灾，田地裂缝，河水断流，庄稼枯黄。而皇帝派的钦差姚耀宗不问放赈，反而向知县索取书画，还送来100 两纹银，郑板桥就以一幅鬼图讽刺。姚大怒撕了画泄愤，并指使财主屯粮，使百姓饿死，以此增加郑板桥罪过。郑板桥眼见百姓惨状，而心力不支，非常纳闷。妻子相劝：既然皇上不问，钦差不理，你就装糊涂嘛！郑板桥发怒说：装糊涂，我郑板桥装不起来。你可晓得，聪明难，糊涂难，由聪明变糊涂更难，难得糊涂。由此反而有所启发，就以“拯救万民，在所不惜”激
　　励自己，宣布立即开官仓赈济饥民。郑板桥所说的这句话，后来即成为“难得糊涂”的自注：“聪明难，糊涂难，由聪明而转入糊涂更难，放一著，退一步，当下心安，非图后来福报也”。因此台湾徐兰川说，“这句话文义，似乎喻人凡事不要太认真，得过且过，所谓‘不痴不聋，不作阿家翁’的另一注解。加以句读，聪明者有俗谓之智慧，有赖于人的先天遗传和后天的环境教育，才能培养成就完美的性格，是以人欲聪明并不易。苏东坡诗：人皆养子望聪明，我被聪明误一生。所以聪明人难做。什么是糊涂，糊涂就是不精明，糊涂有两种：一种真糊涂，朦朦处世，似是与生俱来，装不来，求不到；一种是装的假糊涂，明明是非黑白了然于胸，偏偏假装养麦不分，即是‘由聪明转入糊涂了’。根据郑板桥这种性格和心理结构，出污泥而不染的高雅品格，要他违背自己的理念和道德行为，显然是痛苦和折磨，”聪明人如基于良知道德应有所为，而要他装糊涂而无为，的确很难。“所以徐兰川认为，郑板桥有这段感慨”难得糊涂“的题书，”其中有段非常感性的心路历程，也是知识分子从政，在专制腐败政海中无法展现职志的一种抗议之声。
　　它具有为所当为的失败涵意，不可为而为的胆识。“因此这种”心理调节“，乃是”试图把自己的心理反差平衡一下，以求得方寸的暂时安宁“（徐兰川《难得糊涂是郑板桥的抗议之声》，台湾《中央日报》1992年6 月19日）。心安理平说。是说郑板桥在署潍县知县期间，接到堂弟郑墨函，为了祖传房屋一段墙基，与邻居诉讼，要他函告兴化知县相托，以便赢得这场官司。郑看完信后，立即赋诗回书：“千里捎书为一墙，让他几尺又何妨？万里长城今犹在，怎么不见秦始皇！”稍后，他又写下“难得糊涂”、“吃亏是福”两幅大字。并在“难得糊涂”大字下加注“聪明难，糊涂难，由聪明转入糊涂更难，放一着，退一步，当下心安，非图后来福报也”。在“吃亏是福”大字下加注：“满者损之机，亏者盈之渐，损于己则盈于彼，各得心情之半。而得我心安即平，且安福即在是矣“（《读者参考》1991年4 月）。这里引用的一首七绝，其实是他同时期的大学士桐城张英所作，搬在这里，恐非事实。而此处将“难得糊涂”比喻为就是聪明，难得做一次糊涂，心安理得，也可取得心态均衡。因为“吃亏是福”，即是“难得糊涂”最恰切的诠释。自我清醒说。郑板桥从不糊涂，他所以兴叹“难得糊涂”，自有其苦衷在焉。朱铁志认为：“郑板桥是个极清醒的人。唯其清醒、正派、刚直不阿，面对谗言无能为力时，才会有‘难得糊涂’的感叹。‘难’在何处？‘难’在他毕竟清醒明白，心如明镜，无法对恶势力充耳不闻、视而不见；‘难’在他‘一枝一叶总关情’，对百姓的疾苦不能无动于衷。”“只有假装糊涂，然则终究不能无观现实，遂有痛苦于内，‘淡然’于外，而生‘难得糊涂’之叹了。”（《从‘难得糊涂’说到质量万里行》，《人民日报》1992年8 月4 日）
　　郑板桥以“难得糊涂”出名，他所说的“难得糊涂”，却有不同解释，有望文生义的，有作词语解译的，也有就其深醇的内涵进行探讨的，诸说不一。那么它该作何种解释更为恰切、可以共识呢？看来，“不知古人之世，不可妄论古人之辞也；知其世矣，不知古人之身世，亦不可以遽论其文也”（章学诚《文史通义。文德》）。后人难知前人心态和处世的复杂文化环境，要有正确适当解释，还是难以圆其说的吧！

《难得糊涂》

 

聪明难,

糊涂难,

由聪明转入糊涂更难。

放一着,

退一步,

当下心安,

非图后来福报也。

 

郑板桥书

 《黄金甲》观后感：

万丈千军皇宫下，

王悲恨心军令下，

重阳血洗黄金甲，

大王孤立菊花上。

 

1.)带给人们快乐的人

    -他们会牺牲自己的快乐

    -他们选择隐藏真正的自己

    -他们会把自己拥有的给身边的人  

    -他们会把身边的人放在自己之上

    -他们会第一个想起身边的人

    -他们或许流了许多泪

    -他们的心或许有很多伤痕

     ~ 就算他们累了，也会重新振作，不顾一切地带给身边的人无穷的欢笑，并给了大家

        属于大家的快乐

       

       

2.)为自己寻找快乐的人

    -他们只望自己快乐

    -他们果断的拒绝伤害自己的事情

    -他们会极力寻找能给自己快乐的东西

    -他们会把自己放在别人之上

    -他们是幸福的

    -他们是快乐的

    -他们或许把痛苦建立身边的人身上

    -他们或许是自私的

    -他们或许是无心的

    -他们想要的是满足自己

        他们可能做到了，但，他们有否想过，身边的人内心的感受？

        可是，他们终究还是为自己找到了

        属于自己的快乐

 

 

 

六，

上玄月高挂天边，

心情犹如月型般，

高高地挂着，

苦苦地念着，

默默地守着，

安静地等着，

轻声一叹，

上玄月夜悄悄地...

离开了...

 

九，

烈酒伴凸月，

欲圆然有缺，

铁心淌着血，

乌甜送伤别，

众言感心切，

汉子把心谢。

 

十，

中秋月圆人团圆，

天使歌唱满心愿，

孤心一角填满全，

孤单中秋东北间，

却非染却天地间，

人间依然喜团圆，

只望全天乐连连。

 

 

3 more hours.....

Lawrence called...to confirm the time..and he told me there will be someone following us to aiport

When he got there...He introduced a guy..named Jimmy to me..

I just answer him perfunctorily..

Who knows..he is from MIRI!

and..suprisingly! He is my AJK of the orientation year when i got into chung hua!

hahah!! Group Leader Somemore!

WHat a coincidence!

We talked about all the seniors..Bout whre are they..Doing wat...hahah...

OHYA!!!! MABLE got BF ALREDY!!!!!!! OH MY GOD!!! CANT BELIEVE TAT!!!! :P

Reached airport..check in...There were SO MANY PPL!!!

my luggage....24.5KG!!! >< Luckily tat guy didnt charge me..hehe

went into the waiting area....had a quichie..bacon and egggggg NICE!!! xD

Talked to Jocelyn..Her...Wan....then...go ON BOARD!!!

hahah...i sit between window seat and corridor seat...

Two Gals came in....they were frens i think...I gave them my seat so they can sit together..actually.. they are quite pretty...:P haha...if not how will i give them my seat?? rite??? :P

8 hours...watch lion king..^^ and..ohya! jacky wu's show!! damn nice lah!! haha!

Didnt really sleep well..the plane was so shaky...

Reach kl airport...confirm my time..and gate...wat the hell!! need to transit KCH??????? OMG!!

nvm...i on my laptop and watch jay chou's life concert..sing somemore! haha..quite embarrassing! =P

went into my gate....who knows..fon low batt!! and....need to delay like 1 hour lah!!!! DOG!!!

But nvm....i talked to an uncle from...KCH...but...working in DUBAI! damn rich!! He taught me a lot of stuff...Worked hard! wont regret! ^^

change gate....to B11....damn...walked from one end till the other...

hhaa..went on board! sitting wif...two japan guy!!

quite a nice guy..hehe..but he spilt his coffee on his shirt! silly!!!!

slept a bit..regained energy!!

Waited in airport..heard someone's conversation..bout the match of Argentina..:P

ready for boarding...

:|

the guy told me need to go immigration..dog..need to find the guy..

NO ONE IN THE COUNTER!!

I saw another guy from far..i went there..but he said need to go counter!! BUT THERE IS NO ONE!!!!!!

went into the stupid office..found someone..who tell me need to go find the counter AGAIN!!!!

at last..The first guy helped me....

AND...

I was the LAST ONE who got into the plane...nearly miss my flight..stupid procedure..

In the plane...meet someone who really hates government..keep on complaining!! stupid...

REACHED MIRI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Waited for my luggage..talked to an angmo!! she is also from Aust!! but Perth..But she likes Melbourne a lot!

Walked out....see my mum....then...

HOME SWEEET HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

 

today..

i went to church....i woke up at 10...^^

so early...><

the service today was bored...

but...the topic today is very interesting and meaningful....

is about forgiveness...

after church..we went nando's for lunch..but...the lunch there sucks ><

i will not be goin there anymore!! not nice!!

after nando's..i decided to go and shop for my ipod....

i wanted to go wif ivan..but...all of them move...haha

luckily..they went to different places...but..i hv no idea where they went..

first..me and ivan went to myer...the electronic stuffZ there really cool!!!

especially the fridge!! so high class!!

we decided to go other shops to hav more comparison of the price...

we went david jones....

WAT A SHOCK!!

all levels are gal's stuff...we decided to leave the place at last...

but..opposite the road still got another david jones....in tat dj...we found tat david jones got three parts:

   1.mens

   2.womens

   3.homes

homes section is located too far away...so we went to a Hi-Fi Shop...i think is JB hifi? or watever name..haha..=P

the price there is the same as myer's..we decided to go bck...hehe...

before we went to Hi-FiShop..i saw many ppl play music along the street...so cool!!!

after a few minutes walk...I GOT MY IPOD NANO~~

i m very happy..really happy...

on da way bck home..i saw fawn...she bought a jacket..haha...not bad =P

at night...we went joggin..."we" includes me,wanz,heather,cheryl,melZ,fawn....

i saw our hostel guyZ playin football there..i feel so shy ><

after 2 round of jogging...i decided to hav a rest....

melz so cool..she can dance really well...i enjoyed watching melz and heather dance~~

but...a weird guy came to us....we left...>< too scary...~~

we went to the field tat guyz play football....^^

they invited me to play...i played..but...my skill sucks >< i shot 3 shotz..but neither of them go in..haha...

the sky getttin darker and darker..ivan taught us how to play the "123" game..haha..really fun..but...at lasst i lost the game....haiz....i had been penalized to run around the garden..run...:(

we went of for dinner at night....bout 9.15pm...but...>< anyway....yoyogi's unadon was quite nice...not bad....but...><

i think tat's all for today....i did keep somethin as a secret..haha...don wan to make my frenz in miri worry bout it...but now i think should be ok already...recovered!

today...i was very happy..but..is just a "was"...a"was"..

this morning...i went to flagstaff myself...

tat place is amazing!!!!!

the only thing i can feel from tat place is "freshness"!!

its a place tat free from pollution!

its a great place for doin anythin...

i feel like bringing her there...but i dunno whether i got the chance or not..

i think she will be very happy if she was there...

after one hour study...

i went to hungry jack....

alone again...

nice......nice studying environment...^^ nice food too...

it is really really nice to be alone..sometimes...when i get bck to hostel...

i feel very stressed....dunno why...

tonite..or maybe today..its 1am+ already..

i was damn damn damn down.....haiz...

why such thing always happen on me??

i really dunno....i really wanna know the reason...

forget it..maybe i m really out of the world...................

i feel like i was being 敷衍(maybe a lot ppl donno wat this means) all the time...

but...i will still survive!! i promised you b4..i will become strong...become mature!! ;)

if the world is against me..i will become stronger and stronger!!!

today i woke up at er....

10am i think^^

ivan called me...he is bck!!

haha...

i was readin my biology notes...

after a moment..someone knock my door...

i opened it...

IS IVAN!!

haha...he is still alive^^we predicted tat he would die in the air crash..but didnt..=(

haha..anyway...he is so good^^ he bought us Crispy Creme...nice!! i ate two...so full..

thanks ivan..for givin me such a nice breakfast...

i isolated myself for whole afternoon...until 5...

i went to melissa room..but they were goin out to watch rugby match...

they called me to go..crazy...rugby...i don even know the rules!!

at last....only me,dimple,andrew and fawn ate dinner...

wanz is not feelin well..she went to have a nap...=(

after dinner..

i went save way wif fawn...fawn is really "egg-gy"..

she bought eggs..omg..disgustin..haha...

anyway..i bought LCM..3 boxes~~and also apple juice~~

when we were goin bck from save way...andrew called and ask us to buy famous amos cookies for him..

wat the hell..so troublesome...when we reach there..it was close!!! and it was raining somemore~~

needles rain~~=(

ofcourse..we then walked back to hostel...we met dimple and andrew..at train station..then we walked bck to gether...haiz..

when i reached home..i ve nth to do..try to finish my bio...after tat..i went dwn and saw andrew and fawn again.waitin for pizza...=.=

i saw heather!!! i had not been seeing her for more than 15hours already!!

she gave me Crispy Creme again!! so touched....~_~

after a while..pizza arrived...we went up to fawn & wanz room and eat...

haha...

a funny thing happened...andrew typed to edward using fawn's msn and said:

DO U LOVE ME???

hahaha...fawn turned crazy...and angry..hahah...

and we were in trouble..or i should say andrew was in trouble..

but..fawn is a good gal..she forgive us at last...thanks fawn^^ ofcoz..sorry too^^

after we finished pizza..everyone have their own thing to do....><

i called suk wan..and wanna call jia jia...but cant get through...

i think tat's enuf for today...

In conclusion(m i writing essay?? =P)

TODAY IS A GREaT & SuCesSfuL day...i finally isolated and meditated myself^^

dunno why...

i got a feeling tat...

i m out of this world...

totally out of this world..

maybe someone will think i m crapping..

but...

tat's wat i feel..

out of this world......

>.<

Today....i don dare to wake up....i force myself to sleep.

because...today is 13 of march..which is the day tat spm result paste on the notice board of SMK chunghua...

its 10.30am..my alarm clock rang...i woke up..reset it..to 11.30am...

it rang again...i off it...and continue to sleep....

then finally i cant stand...its 12++pm already..

i went down from my green bed...

i switch on my computer...

just started to download jay chou's qing tian..

then suddenly..

an unwanted phone number appear on my phone...6016874xxxx..

i regonised this number..is chen's number..

i answered the phone call..

clearly heard tat chen's voice is full of happiness...

wat appeared in my heart is the word "phew~~"

my spm result is not tat bad..10a 1b..

haha..mr phang..sorry..i still cant get a in my spm..=P

haha..i think tat's all for today...^^